i'm so stressed. so worn down. so scared.
all these thoughts keep running through my mind,
"what college am i going to go to?"
"am i taking the right classes to get into a good college?"
"am i putting all my effort into my work?"
"am i being a good friend/girlfriend/daughter/sister/etc.?"
i'm so stressed.

i'm so tired of school. so tired of the people i have to deal with.
and because they stress me out, i take it out on my friends
and especially my family.
i just need to let go,
give it all to God.
because he can handle it alot better than i can.
i'm on the verge of breaking.

but, it's so good to have those people in my life,
that when i'm having the worst day ever, they send me
a simple text message, small phone call, or even just a hug
and suddenly everything is ok for a few minutes.
and they don't even realize how much it means to me.
they're the ones that keep me going.

=)

oh, it's love.
©

humm. lately i feel like i'm constantly doing something.
and even when i'm not, i am.
which isn't always a good thing.
sometimes when i'm by myself or just sitting around
my head is spinning with all these thoughts,
and i find myself talking really fast to people and whatnot.
sometimes i just kind of want it all to stop,
you know?
just for enough time to let me catch up and take a deep breath.
there's so much stress on me, so much pressure.
and yeah some of the stress i put on myself, and i know i shouldn't,
and i'm working on that. but some of it i feel like i can't control.

but, i really am genuinely happy.
i'm so content with my friends and family, and i'm happy.
i don't have to pretend to be happy or smile around you.
and i love that.

=)

[And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it every day
And I know
That I am, I am
I am the luckiest]

iloveyou.

a weekend away will do things to you.
especially in the mountains with nothing to do but look at the snow.
i feel like i couldn't have left at a worse time,
and now i feel like i'm so behind on so many things.
but, i realized this weekend that that's life.
and it's ok, because i'm surrounded by so much love,
and that love will get me through.
plus, the snow was pretty,
and i got to play in it.
=)

happy sweetsixteen katie!!
sorry i wasn't here for it.